as much as i love to write down my thoughts … i just can’t seem to post them online… Im a think it .. write it.. keep it pushin type of person i guess.. but I will indefinitely continue to make this work.
Everyday when I wake up I ask myself what it is that I am going to do, what change am I going to make, or am I going to just be stagnant.
Sometimes I write, sometimes I plan, sometimes I clean, sometimes I cook, and sometimes I just sit around all day and watch movies.
There was a day that I would get down on myself about taking a day, a week or even a month off, but now I know that some days I think Im taking off Im really cultivating my own creativity and others I just need, I mean I’m only human.
I could spend everyday trying to figure out what’s wrong and what’s right. Compare my accomplishments with those who have gotten farther than I have, make myself feel better knowing there are those who havent gotten as far as I have and get down on myself for “just being”. But everyday I realize that just being alive, knowing how to appreciate life and be happy with what it is that I do or don’t have is success in itself and with that I will happily make the bed I will appreciate at the end of each day when I yearn to lay in it.
Just finished reading Russell Simmons’ book Do You!, everyone should definitely check it out.
This book was a very interesting read and I found that a lot of, if not all the laws discussed in the book applied to me and I didn’t even realize it. Going back to my blog post “Subconsciously livin’ that life”, it’s crazy how much of these values and beliefs I already believe in and practice but now just need to improve and consciously embrace and practice them openly in my life each day.
Russell.. yea, I’m gonna pretend we’re on a first name basis.. don’t be jealous. After, learning more about Russell and reading his book I have become a big fan, but back to the book.
Russell talks about 12 laws to Access the power in you to achieve happiness and success.
See Your Vision and Stick With It
Always Do You
Get Your Mind Right
Stop Frontin’ and Start Today
Never Less Than Your Best
Surround Yourself With The Right People
There Are No Failures, Only Quitters
The Science of Success: Plant the Good Seeds
You Can Never Get Before You Give
Successful People Stay Open To Change
Be Powerful, Be Heard
Spit Truth to Power
Through this book I recognize the steps I have already taken and the ones that I still need to take in order to get where it is that I want to be. I have found myself in a place where I have gotten my mind right, and found my vision. I am now taking advantage of my ability to “Just Do It” and keep pushing through without quitting and while having the right people around me and the right attitude.
Today I let my passions take over my day and found myself deep in my own mind. It was a great release from my everyday and gave me a great sense of accomplishment. I drew a Koi that is now hanging on my wall above my kitchen table as well as wrote down a slam that just cam to me mid-drawing. I would say it was a productive day off.
Here I have been consuming myself with the thought of a great life that I could be living and the fears and worries that I would never achieve it, when I should of just been looking around me. If I had just let go of the fear and worry and opened up my mind to what was right here in front of me, I would have seen that I am already far along my way to my ultimate destination. Already implementing beliefs and habits that could be embraced and enjoyed instead of overshadowed with doubt. I am glad that I have began to open my eyes, my heart and my mind and start to break away form the negativity that weighs me down.
Worry and Fear hold you back from you maximum potential. When you are to busy worrying and fearing things, you don’t have time to be focused on the things that you want to accomplish nor are you open to the limitless amount of things that the world has to offer. You will save yourself much time and energy as well as open yourself up for bigger and better things when you learn to let go of fear and worry.
Everyone should have a certain level of detachment to the physical thing around them in order to keep themselves open to new things. When you are holding on to the things that are constant and you let yourself get stuck in comfort you are simultaneously closing yourself off to change and opportunity in new places, with new people and new things. When you free yourself of the extra baggage and wight holding you down to a certain place, person or mindset you free yourself to a plethora of new possibilities. There are healthy forms of attachment lik you love for your family and unhealthy anchors like the thought that you can never leave home and start you own family or weighing attachments to material things.
These are the 5 afflictions that hinder us from serving our higher self and attaining liberation. [Spiritual I know, I am very into spirituality and finding peace and liberation form within. Something like serenity.]
Attachment to Pleasure (raga)
Aversion to Pain (dvesa)
Fear of Death (abhinivesah)
If this sparks your curiosity I encourage you to maybe just go read a little more about the 5 kleshas.
For the past 3 years I let myself fall stagnant and stood stalling to move forward with my dreams. I now recognize that I have fallen victim to negativity and let myslef precent myself from moving forward ant that I have and only I have the power to move myself forward or not. So I have found the motivation to find that positivity in all circumstances and create positive energy for myself.
Only you have the poser to keep yourself down, in essence you are “the man”. Keep the air around you positive and you will begin to see positive reaction.
I am just as lost as the next person. I have just chosen to get more familiar with myself and the world around me in order to find my true potential. [Which I feel is to help change the world or at least the little piece of the world that I have the power to effect. I definitely believe that changing one person’s world is still making a difference even if that is all the difference I was meant to make. ] I will not always be lost but I will always be finding my way. How is that? Well once I know where my “golden gate/ place of enlightenment” is then I am no longer lost however the path to get there will always be changing and therefore I will always be finding my way to the new path. Though I am still lost, I at least know what it is that I am looking for which brings me that much closer to being found.
I mentioned compromising your values in order to get thing you think you may want or that may bring you fulfillment. I like to keep myself grounded and clear of the compromise by looking at my ultimate destination and my current location as being separated by a “grey area”. The only way to reach my goal is to pass through it and in it right and wrong are no longer black and white but a great mass of “grey”. Once I begin to go into the thick I must be prepared to remind myself of who I am and what I am willing to sacrifice and what I’m not in order to “make it”. In some places the “grey area” will be shorter than others, however shorter doesn’t always mean better nor more satisfying in the end. Shorter doesn’t mean worse either, so you must be strong in knowing yourself and go in armed with protection from the snakes that will steer you in the wrong direction. When I say armed, it can mean something different for everyone but I think for most it will be the equivalent to having God on your side or whatever higher power or source that you may or may not believe in.
If you ask anyone what success is they are sure to have an answer. But the real question is what does success mean to you? At the end of the day everyone will be able to tell you what success is.. FOR THEM. Just like one person will prefer ocean front living to the inland ranch lifestyle, everyone has their own dreams and desires for the things that they wish to eventually have. So to truly find success you have to sit down and ask yourself what will bring you happiness, what are the things that “are you” and how do you obtain them. Because chasing the dreams of another, comparing what you have or want to the next man or compromising your values for things that you think may or may not make you happy or bring you fulfillment will never bring you success. Just food for thought.
I took a drive with an older man of god today and while I was blessed the opportunity o be open and learn from his wisdom he was given the opportunity to share and I feel that the two of us shared a great afternoon of give and take where we could share with one another what we had to offer. The thing I love more than to share my dreams is to share them with others who have similar visions, especially when they have wisdom to share that I can learn from to help me on my own journey.
As I have said before, it is beneficial to keep yourself open to what the world has to offer you. When I say the world I mean the people, books and elements that make up the world around us. It is important to share your knowledge and soak up the knowledge outside of yourself. When you are open, your already great ideas and visions can become even better and redefined dreams.
I know… I’ve been M.I.A. I like to say I’ve been B.U.B. (Buried Under Books).
But that’s neither here nor there.
The school year is over, but my journey through life continues and now more than ever I have time drown myself everything I want all day everyday in my own time.
" And I won’t stop til its over"
Each day that passes I discover more about myself, reveal more of my past and realize more of my future. I cherish that I can see the changes in myself that I thought I wouldn’t be able to and feel proud that I can “keep it pushin” and continue to want more for myself.
I have so many feelings, emotions, thoughts, ideas, hopes, aspirations, dreams, visions its overwhelming. I sometimes have to fall back and just chill. I need time to breathe and time to be away from obligations and attachments. I like a slow pace and little complications. However, relationships, no matter what type, require a piece of you even when you don’t feel like sharing yourself. I long for a life of simplicity at its best. Not one without all of the chaos and dysfunction I have learned to embrace but one where simplicity is the result of everyone embracing the world together. Whether or not these thoughts make sense is not of any concern to me … this is simply the expression amidst the dysfunctional world my mind is overwhelmed by as it embraces all that is with open arms on a journey of self discovery.
I love to have me time to just be and live and enjoy LIFE. I believe this is important for the spirit, I found myself playing around on the keyboard escaping into myself this week and by doing so I also found myself getting things done and being productive this week. I guess you can say it is in a way a form of meditation for myself.
Find your “meditation” , it will be a piece that helps to keep you together through everything else.
Just as being proactive and productive serve a person in your life, making time for yourself will help you to push forward and serve its own purpose.
Ok.. Its been a min, I’ve been caught up… but let me do some catch up.
Soooo, its been a week of LIFE which equals A LOT. Im really don’t have too many words honestly, just tryna find my niche in the world. I feel I has a pretty productive week, finished a lot of school work, went to work and even managed to get some personal projects out of the way. I decided to take my own advice and be OPEN to the world and it personally made me feel great. Having conversations with friends and strangers about life and dreams can open up new dreams and new avenues.
**Hunger is not just the need for food, its a want so deep for the things you want in life that they become a need**
When you close yourself off to the world you close your mind and all the ingenious within it. You have to be open to thing bigger when you share with all that is around you. Speak to those who are willing to listen and listen to those who are willing to speak. You never know what stories, ideas, opportunities or friendships you can come across in a day, an hour, a minute, a moment.
Emerging into a community I lived within for years opened my eyes to the opportunities and possibilities for my visions to be seen by others outside of myself. And for visions to be shared is a beautiful thing.
It’s those moments at night when I lay awake
When I look at the ceiling in silence with everything yet nothing on my mind
That I wish, hope, dream, and long for my own everything
When I close my eyes just to open them
Try to count the sheep and bore myself past the already existent boredom
That I look over and ask myself why I feel so alone in this moment
Kaizen... (Japanese philosophy of continuous improvement)
is a theme I strive to live by where everyday I will live my life getting one step closer to becoming the best version of myself while having the best understanding of myself. There is no need for me to talk about what I had or hadn’t accomplished before my 21st birthday (March 18th) because as of now it is irrelevant.
So…. I was going to wait until April 18th to start posting my thoughts about my new approach to life and my daily ventures but to wait would be contradictory to my new approach. I need to seize the moment and “Just Do It.” If I wait for the perfect time I will always be waiting, over contemplating and over analyzing. So as of now … The Journey shall be shared.